So, after quite a while, I decided there was something I want to write a journal entry about.
As you may have noticed, I am on and off dA, sometimes creating no new artwork for quite long periods of time. Not necessarily so because I enjoy taking long breaks from creating art. It's more like I need to split my life between art and everything else that seems a wise thing to do, such as (finally) completing my studies, which are unfortunately not directly related to art. Then sometimes the context switching seems like a hard thing to do. I feel like I get out of the flow and if I manage to convince myself to start drawing, it feels like I have lost the connection to art and nothing turns out good enough.
Nevertheless, I have decided for myself that art is a part of my life and I want to become a better artist, even if at times this may seem impossible.
I feel that everytime I take a break from art and then finally return to it and take up the pencil or Wacom pen again, there are at the very least some new insights for me. Some things in life are not about being finished and arriving at some set goal. Rather, they are about constantly putting in the time and effort, getting better at it, improving skills and the ability to realize what you have conceived in your head and being happy with it. Gaining new insights along the way and - especially - enjoying the process! In many ways, after all, this is what life is all about.
Art seems to be just one of those things. Maybe when I started out I had my inspiration from other, much better artists than myself. I kept looking up to those artists and telling myself, one day I will be as good as them and then churn out pieces like that and that will be it. And I probably wasn't very patient to begin with. I didn't even realize how much work would lie between my skills at that time and those of the artists I was admiring.
Of course, in all these years, even those artists have moved on. They attained new levels of skill and expression still that seem incomprehensible to me. In some cases I shifted my focus towards other artists, techniques or subjects. I realized, that for me, art is about changing - about developing not only skills but also changing as a person. Art is in many ways a reflection of the life of the artist. If there is something missing in the art, there may be still missing something in life.
That being said, laziness is not a good excuse for not creating art. All the time spent on social networks or browsing dA (though certainly a good thing ) could be invested in drawing and improving as an artist. My resolution is to try and adhere to the good advice given by many professionals that one should create art every day. Also I realized that there is still so much that I have not done in all these years that I am drawing. So many studies to do, subjects to paint, techniques to explore. It is probably enough to last more than a lifetime!
So, if you ever feel stuck - like I often do - the best thing to do probably is to relax, then take up that pencil and start sketching already.
Last but not least, thanks to everyone that has favourited my art, commented or set a watch! I usually do not have the time to thank everyone individually, but I do try to visit your dA gallieries some time and check out your artwork.